Happy Samhain!

happy Samhain everybody!
i did my ritual earlier. it was lovely. nice and peaceful.
to begin with, i remembered the dead. that's what samhain is all about. i then lit 5 orange candles and i invoked the goddess and the god. i then spoke some words about the god passing into death. then i expelled my anger by burning paper with "anger" written on it. i feel much happier now. then i spoke more words, thanked the goddess and god, and opened my circle.
to be true, this should be written in a book of shadows. but i don't have one - yet! but i'll make do.
did all you people know that hallowe'en actually means all hallows eve? no? didn't think so! basically its when all the ghosties come out to play. ha ha. but its when the border between life and death is at its thinest.
has any of you had any trick or treaters yet? i haven't.
got to go now. will blog soon.
love and bless
Sorche

Monday - back from School

hi all.
back from school. i don't actually have any homework for a change. yay!! well, i do have things to print off and revision for a biology NAB (AHHHHH!!!!!). but apart from them i'm all clear. just dissertation stuff for english. hmm... just looking at what i have written maybe i should be doing homework. oh well.
am much happier now. lol. can't believe i got so worked up about someone i haven't met yet. lol. maybe i have met them but i don't realise how much they will be invovled in my life later. scary thought or what? ha ha.
i got my Coleridge essay back in English. I passed!!!!!!!!!!! That's quite an acheivement cos i'm doing advanced higher and i only got a C at higher. lol. would be hilarious if i got a B at advanced higher. lol.
i do need a book of shadows. lol. how many times have i said that? quite a lot. all i need is a notepad and a pen. but i want one that i can lock to keep my mum's nose out. she is incredibly nosey. i want one that i can preserve and keep for the future, for my children (if i have any, if i can have any). that's a weird thought. having children. lol. i often fantasise about having a daughter. Moira - that's a nice name. its a nice girl's name but its not a stupid name like Apple or Peaches. they go well with a fruity personality but i'd be embarrassed to have a name like that.
i like my name. it comes from the Hebrew for princess. I think the actually word is Sara - but i like Sarah better. lol. i'm not biased or anything. ha ha. my brother's name (Christopher) means carrier of Christ. better not drop Him - that's all i can say. lol.
ah well.
better go and sort out some of this stuff for chemistry.
love and bless
Sorche

Sunday - nearly Samhain!

hi everybody.
Taste Good was good last night. lol. i have beef in black bean sauce. highly recommend it. there were 15 of us! me, my bro, four cousins, nana, grandad, mum, dad, nana's friend, two aunts and two uncles. the uncles are my aunts' husbands. we went back to my aunt's house. dad went to get Sam so he wasn't left alone in the house too long. awww. lol.
that's about it really. i managed to get my personal statement sorted. at last!!!!!! think i must now have at least 3 copies. and they are all different! lol.
Samhain is on Tuesday. I've got everything ready so now all i have to do is make sure that no one interrupts me. think i'll just say that i want to burn some candles in my room. lol. hopefully mum will get all absorbed in something on the telly. think dad is working and bro has football training. so should be ok.
i wish i didn't have to be so secretive. but i don't know how to approach this with my parents. my mum just doesn't hold with anything religious but she did say a few years back that she wouldn't hold religion against anyone. but i don't know what she would think about something that isn't mainstream religion like christianity. hmmm... dad is an enimga - just a posh word for a mystery - so i haven't a clue how to approach him. he did catch me reading a book about wicca and all he did was give me this look and i never mentioned it again. my brother thinks i'm strange anyway so i don't care about him. lol. my aunt lizzie is quite spiritual so she might be more understanding. but she scares me because... i don't know... she works in sales and has to be forceful with her 'customers' but she can't seem to take herself away from her work. mind you, she does work from home. my mum agrees. no one argues with aunt lizzie unless you have a death wish. that's all i'm saying.
this blog isn't that long but that doesn't matter, does it? lol. i just need somewhere to put my feelings. i really do need that book of shadows. a place for all my feelings and doubts. what i really need is someone at home i can talk to about this stuff. but all my friends are really staunch christians. don't get me wrong, they are good friends but i can't talk to them about this. i need someone.
still looking for my soulmate. lol. maybe i'll never find him. booo. thats a very depressing thought. i believe that there is someone out there for everyone. maybe he'll arrive when i least expect him to. i keep looking at random guys in the street going: "that could be him". makes me laugh. maybe if i stop looking i'll find him? maybe i should go and check out those pagan shops down in the cannongate. wonder who would go with me though. can't ask parents. friends? need to think about that. steph might. she seems interested enough. but i wonder if she would come? i wouldn't go alone.
ah well. think i've just depressed myself now.
crap! haven't done that blasted english homework.
will blog sometime in the future when i'm happier.
blessings
Sorche

Sunday - getting ready for Samhain

hi everyone.
well tea and nana and grandad's was not too bad.
we watched strictly come dancing. i know. i'm sooo sad but its good. can't believe spooney and ola got knocked out. just shows the power of the public. lol. the judges were sooo nasty to poor georgina. shes a nurse (i think) in casualty. blimey i watch too much tv. lol.
but the best bit was that Meatloaf did his new single. it was soooo amazing to see him again. i love his stuff!! he's aged though. i mean his hair was always grey-ish but he wasn't as young looking in the face. but i really like that song. the video for it is amazing. right. i need to stop here or i'll go on and on and on and on - you get the picture. lol.
yeah - Samhain is coming!! New Year!! for those of you who haven't got a clue what i am on about Samhain is one of the major holidays when death is acknowledged as something that is a part of life. it reinforces the ideas of the circle instead of a straight line i.e. death is the end bla bla bla. I've done my research but i wont put the ritual here because some people may try it just for a laugh and i don't want to dishonour Her.
still on a learning curve and i really need to find a book of shadows. maybe i could have an online one? nah. don't think that would work. heh heh heh. A BOS is meant to be private so i don't think i'd do that. lol.
anyone who has questions can always ask me in their comments. if you leave your blog addresses or something i'll get back to you. promise. and you can ask me anything about wicca or paganism in general.
right. i do need to go and get that blasted chemistry revision done. lol.
blessings.
sorche